Sunday, March 04, 2007

Ode to Love!

They say that :
"the worst way 2 miss one is 2 sit right beside them n know that u cant have them"

Firstly I wonder how can one become that important.....How did we let them? But then again....does anything in life happen they way we think and plan? Most of it just happens......that too when u least expect it and when u r least prepared for it.........I guess love falls under the same category as well......It hits u n u reel back in its aftermath......First u r confused as to how what where when and finally why "this person".......then once u get used to the idea its all butterflies in ur stomach.....u think back on all those innocent moments shared with that person and find a story.....and wonder why u never saw it coming.....it was so darned obvious.....u think back on how u came into each others lives....feel how unplanned n impulsive it was......feel like it all happened coz it was meant to be.....coz it was destiny's one big plan which was now all falling into place.......(awwwwww say some;some say crap...lol).....u see things u never wud have in that person otherwise....observe every Lil detail......Basically walk with ur head in the clouds and ur heart out on ur sleeve......

Then a hitch; A hiccup....Isn't there one always??????? If there wasn't one every 2 steps; life wud be too god damned perfect and now that cant happen can it? That's when it happens....ur perfect fairy tale comes crashing down all over u....u either lose "the one" due to ur own stupidity or theirs(things which r too good to be true never really last anyways right).....or u wake up n realise u made a mistake(ur right she's right...does it really matter now?).....or ur story never really takes off....The end before it even began( oh yes ).......the same butterflies in the stomach either turn nauseating or give u an eternally sinking feeling depending on which of the situations above, u r in fact facing....u either cringe at the thought of the person(What was I thinking when I picked that person or was I thinking at all) or u just sit dumb( yup its my fault I lost him/her...and try to console yourself saying its better to have loved n lost than to have never loved at all or some shit like that) or u just wish wish wish that ur story starts so that with time u can also end up like the above 2 cases.......

In the end all I just want to know is.....Was it all worth it? All the time,the effort,the hope,the dreams dreamt....all the HEARTACHE.....even as I write this all out....I say my answer is Still YES.....if it were to happen all over again with the same ending...we wud probably do it the same way......Lil different maybe(there s always scope for improvement) but essentially the same way......Y? simple....love is what makes the world go around....whether its loving ur family or ur dog or ur friends or ur career or even terrorism(Kidding!)....So y shud this love be any different.....Love is after all Love......And it isn't a sin...... Inspite of everything....U would still think about the goofy smile....dreamy eyes....long legs......arrogant attitude....power walk.....all the days u sat up together talking crap....all the silly fights....the hand in hand walks.....and all the sighs and wishings and wondering what to answer when ur heart asks u y he isnt urs(for my friends whose train never took off)watever......U just cant stop...and U wont either.......!!!

And yes it Hurts!


Here's To Love,

~K

Friday, January 26, 2007

Hey All

Its been ages.Things have happened.I was not thinking of postingbut K's last blog made me want to write.Go up top girl...I agree with you almost all the way...EXCEPT the part where nce guys finish last coz there arent any.Guess what?!! I beg to differ.The world is full of nice guys,they are just difficult to find coz most of them are just cautious,scared to show themselves...this is what I heard,and believed in for a long time.Coz you see,I thought I was one of them.But guess what?I was WRONG.Way wrong.

Here is Ashwini,saying that she disagrees with K about there not being nice guys...then she turns around and contradicts herself.Wondering what the hell I am talking about?Well...here goes...This is what I have found out over the last few years.

There are nice guys out there...the ones who want to succeed and want to see others succeed.But the world calls them by other names,selfish,egoist,self centered,doesnt care about the world,the list gors on an on and on....WHY?You wonder...because not many people can accept that there are people out there who are happy.If they accept that there are people out there who are happy,then they have to accept that they can be happy too.And GUESS WHAT?They dont want to be happy.Now,whats the best way to make sure that you stay unhappy?Prove that the rest of the world is unhappy too.Its easier on the ego that way...

You ask,why in the world would people not want to be happy.LOADS of reasons...this shocked me too!!...firstly,if they are unhappy,they have an excuse not to succeed,not to work hard,not to achieve.How many times have we told ourselves I cant do this BECAUSE...think back,you will realise that you do that everyday.Fortunately for me,I had a pretty nasty wake up call recently...where I realised all this.

To give you naother argument,imagine a government office,there is a guy there,lets call him A,who works the hours he is supposed to,gets all his work done,doesnt take bribes...the HONEST employee.Now,as you can imagine,he is outnumbered.Do you think he is rewarded...NOOOO...he is punished.Because you see,if there is ONE good employee,thats a threat to all the other employees,they will have to give up their lazy habits and easy way of life.Another reason why good guys give up and take the beaten path.

Now I wonder,can you call these guys chicken?Or sensible?There are arguements for both,equally strong.Now,I will go a level deeper.Why do we...who consider ourselves above and away from all this...also make the same mistakes. (remember the statement, I cant do this because....??)You got it,the same reason!!Its simply easier.Now,automatically,your brain is generating many reasons why you dont belong to this category,your brain is immediately going on the defensive and maybe even turning you against me.But thats a good thing.It means what I am saying is uncomfortable for you.And that itself is proof that what I am saying is RIGHT.

In conclusion K,the world is full of guys who are deluding themselves into thinking they are good.But just that they are victims of circumstances,so they cant contribute.You see,they want to do so many htings,but they cant do it because...blah blah blah....So what am I saying here?I am saying that the world has forgotten to recognise the really good guys,the ones that are making a difference,because accepting that means that they will have to change and work hard themselves.People have just become lazy...no...they are trained into laziness and fear...

Next time you hear things like,Man...some people have all the luck,She is so lucky to have him/her,If I had that job,If I came from a family that didnt have so many problems,Why should I be the one to suffer,Happiness always leads to unhappiness,My family never was there when I needed them,The government isnt doing anything,...getting the idea...hopefully you will remember this post of mine.

I am now leaving the floor open to discussion.I dont expect any mind you...this will probably step on many toes as it is...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Gloom sets in: An observer's story

When I joined my post graduation; I promised myself that I would be an observer......u ask y? Well here's the story then.......
Pretty early in life I had learned my lesson, that people, like u for what they think u r and not really for who u r...I remember my life in those good 'ol days.....Hailing from an affluent family,class topper, trained dancer, orator.....thou I was sure I was a pretty good judge of character; in today's world u never really know.....Some ppl surrounding me were taken in by the personality they thot I was....Not by the real me...Now its not their fault really....u know me....I don't let ppl know the real me...Now Sid is chanting his fave line...."Y am I such an enigma and Y does he still care"....Lol.......To know me u need to get into my mind...And my mind is my sanctuary...Y the hell should I let anyone in? Anyways I am digressing.......

Often I wondered what made people surround me? The persona, the family background, or just the fact tht its probably kewl to hang around with a popular person from school????? Well I dint really have to wait long for the answers.....They say that when tragedy strikes a ship; the first ones to run out are the RATS!!!!!! I hope that answers all Ur queries.....Now what, when,why,who,where and how---regarding the tragedy would require further digressing from the topic....so lets leave it for another day(lord be merciful)......!
Keeping in mind my future ambitions which precariously revolves around ppl, ppl and more ppl...I decided that I would be a silent observer in my PG....its a new college...new place...new ppl....no one from my past......no one who knows me.....So it was an open field for me....to do as I please.....to write what I want.....This was the best opportunity I could find to study people around me without anyone actually being any wiser......Now don't misunderstand me....I wasn't doing any pretending....Anyone who knows me can vouch for the fact that I cant pretend even if my life depended on it...Lets just say that neither am I myself here....that's all....By being a quiet mouse I get one kind of reaction.....By talking sense another....By being meek(totally un-me) one more kind....and so on so forth.....These reactions have given me insights galore.....Human Kind is such a wondrously complex......No wonder ppl spend an eternity trying to understand it....How can one? It takes all kind to make the world.

I find ppl hugging each other and talkin away to glory like they were long lost buddies....Forgive me if I am inclined to doubt the veracity of these actions......U'd have to think there was genuine love flowing in all directions...But did u actually know that all these "interactions" can be termed as "business networking".....Lol......Do they actually think by smiling fake and greeting each other boistorously, that one will actually come to ur rescue when u need it????? Does it work???? If so then why doesnt one always succeed in everything they do????? Dil ka rishta bhi to hota hai na....U do things only for those u care na---------Well this is naive thinking by me.....In today's world u dont need any sort of connection(which I loosely called dil ka rishta) to help around....Ppl will help anybody as long as the ROI seems interesting......This is what the world has come to.....I c it among students itself...They come diplomatic....no need for training there......Brains brimming with ideas on how to outwit others.....no need for strategy training.....They are already prepared I tell u......They just need a platform...And the MBA just does that....Give 3 shiny letters to add to ur name...to give u some credentials.......Thats it....Rest all they are already equipped with....Now u know y nice guys finish last....??? There ARENT ANY!!!!!!!!


More to come on this topic...U seriously cant think one teeny piece o crap like this can summarize such a topic can u????? Get real....else get lost.....lol....(mean me)


Abbreviations for the ignorant:
ROI ----- Oh c'mon everyone knows this one...Return on Investment.....!


Cheers,
~K

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Back to School.......!!!!

Well kudos to Vids for making sure I put in a few wordssssss on the blog which was left idle for the past 6 months as all the contributors have been suffering from over work, drastic burnout and severe shortage of time even to eat,live or breathe for that matter...

YeAH....back to school awrite......new ppl...new college...new course....basically a new phase in life.....its wat one wud call the next logical step....or was it? Well thts another day's pondering....for today lets continue with the story.......2 yr break between studying hasnt changed the world...lol...schools n colleges r still the same......One of the profs actually gave us homework...Dig tht..(guffaws)....!!!!!!!
For someone who had never faced Ragging there were some "interaction sessions" with the seniors.....not that I saw much....I was a total spoil sport due to personal reasons and walked out.....did I miss out on anything....hmmm Maybe...or Maybe Not!
Anyways college started out with loads of fireworks....and burned our asses out if I can say that....All of us in our batch are suffering from "too much work syndrome" but then who said MBA wud be a joy ride right??? Too all my near dear ones....dont Panic....I completely dig it!!!
Lots of ppl from different backgrounds different places with different ideas and different approaches constitute the Batch.....its an eye opener being with such a diverse batch..... I started off being with a bunch of ppl and am not sorry to inform that I am not with the same bunch anymore....not tht we parted on bad terms...we are on good terms...we just realised we wanted different things in life and we see life differently as well.....also I got bored of them coz I cudnt identify with them even if my life depended on it and needless to say I made sure they got bored of me as well....u ppl know me na.....I tend to do that...its difficult to catch my attention and even more so to keep it....
Also a few ppl whom I hadnt given much thot to turned out to be damn interesting and spiced up my life in more than one way and more than I actually care to admit out here where one and all can read....LOL.....
Perked up ur curiosities did I now??? Interested parties call up for the details....Not u Vidya coz I dont think there is anything we dont know in each other's life so faaaaar.......!!!!!


2006 has been one helluva surprise from start to the finish....had to end up somewhere else but ended up somewhere else alltogether.....had 3 vacations.....if u ppl remember I havent gone on a vacation since 1998.......went to tirupati with a bunch o college mates...went to goa with buddies and went to coorg with family.......Now welcoming a brand new year with more dreams in my eyes...and prayers that everyone I care about hve a gr8 yr ahead and live life as they like it and achieve all that they want to and wish the same for myself....

Happy 2007 ppl....!!!!!!

Cheers,
~K

Happy New Year to All

Wish u all a very Happy n a prosperous New Year 2007!!!!!

Its been really long time since any one has updated this blog... It looks so dry n pale...
I think we shd get back to updating this blog n let know each other wassup in all our lives...
Wat say??

To start with, I'd like to bring up a few high lights of last year...
Last year has been a year with drastic changes in my life... The beginning and end of the year were sooo different that no one can imagine...
I started the year with dreams of joining a B-School, but due to circumstances today I am back in Accenture doing a job.. Not that i gave up MBA, I am pursuing the same from Symbiosis...

The year had a very good end with our trip to GOA. Thanks to Sid n Vinod who made it happen, without whom this might have ended as a dream to Me n Koyel!! Hoping to have more trips like this in the current year(Thats for u both Sid n Vin, we r waiting for those days to come again.. Planning is left to u guys)..

I am running out of time.. got some work.. Will catch up again..
Bye All..
Do update with ur life of 2006!!!!
Take Care,

Cheers,
Vidya

PS : Hope this year make all ur dreams come true[mine too ;)]